Today is the World AIDS day, and I therefore want to remind all of you to go and get yourselves tested. And get all of your other friends to go test themselves as well. You don't think you can possibly have HIV? I'm pretty sure that good friend of mine who has it thought the same, so go get your asses tested.

Conversation I had a while ago:
Him: You're a student, right? So you're here on a student visa, right?
Me: Yes.
Him: Good.

*pause. or, you know, not talking about visas*

Me: Why do you ask about my visa?
Him: Because, you know, it's the polite way of asking if you have been tested.
Me: Tested? You had to get yourself tested to get the visa?
Him: Yes. You didn't? You have tested yourself?
Me: No. I mean, yes. But not because of the visa, I get myself tested every spring anyway.

And now I've written the word "test" so many times it's lost meaning to me...

martinemonster sent me these five questions. If you comment on this post I'll give you five new ones.

5 questions:

1. How did you become a vegetarian (You probably told me, but I haven't got the memory of an elephant)?
I probably didn't, I usually kind of avoid that question ;) I became a vegetarian at the age of 14 (ten years ago, in other words) and there were several reasons why. I was a very political kid, so let's the the political reasons first. There are not really enough food going around, and producing meat means spending a larger areal on producing less food. I also do not agree with the methods used in industrialized farming. It usually leads to worse animal welfare and larger risks for and spreading of dangerous diseases. The reason I do not eat meat at all instead of just eating less/avoid meat from industrialized farming is that it's easier.
The non political reason, and the reason I don't actually talk about why I became a vegetarian is that I became a vegetarian at a point in my life where I had a strong need to feel in control (there are a long background story I'm not giving you), and doing something that is considered as difficult as stop eating meet is, was a way of feeling in control. So, unlike the other girls who got eating disorders, I became a vegetarian. I'm sure you all understand why this is something that I haven't been able to talk about given my organizational background where I had to at least pretend to be a good role model (and also that it is kind of weird).
I also never liked meat. Really.

2. If someone offered you a grown-up job in Beijing right now, with good pay and a possibility of actually becoming fluent in the language, would you take it?
Yes.

3. If you had to pick one gender to fuck for the rest of your life, which would it be?
If I had to pick one sex to fuck for the rest of my life, it would be women.

4. Which musical instrument have you always wanted to learn to play?
Hardingfele (Norwegian, traditional version of a violin, more or less). It is so, so cool.

5. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Someone who can afford my everyday expenses, who has an interesting job and can live where I want to. I'm not sure I want to spend all my life working in the same profession.

I've gotten a cold. Again. Why? Well, long story. Short version: I've walked in the snow, gotten wet, been freezing constantly for more than a week and not gotten nearly enough sleep. My eyes fucking hurt because they're so dry from lack of sleep.
My father and brother have been here, they left today. And even though we had great fun, it's nice to know that I will actually have time to sleep more than 5 hours a night the next couple of weeks.
Even though I will have to pay for my own food again.

As some of you probably know I'm lactose intolerant, and lately I've been eating a lot off stuff with milk in it* (other than yogurt and cheese, I can actually eat yogurt and cheese), last a large bowl of creamy mushroom soup about an hour ago. And my god, was that soup a bad idea. I feel so crappy right now. This must be how the people who actually get hungover from drinking alcohol feel. I am not having anything with milk in it (expect yogurt) for a very long time now. Because if this is how it's gonna be, it's so not worth it.

In other news I've been loosing even more weight. I think I have to talk to my doctor about this when I get back to Norway. (Even though I still look hot, of course:p )

*If I haven't been eating milk for a while I can drink/eat milk for a couple of days before my body actually recognize what I'm feeding it.

My school offers free Swine Flu vaccinations for all it's students this weekend. I don't think I'm taking it. I'm not against vaccinations (I'm very pro-vaccination in a lot of cases actually), but I don't have time, and I don't usually take the Influenza vaccinations, so I don't see why I need to take it this time.

Any reasons why I should take it (other that than being ill for a week sucks)?

It started snowing at about 3 this morning (I was still up of course) and kept snowing for like 12 hours. That was kind of fun, or, you know, not at 4 this morning when I went "home", but at 2 today when I really went home and could have a snowball fight. Wearing high heels with peep toe.

Now it's stopped snowing and there's an ice cold wind instead. Did I mention that the central heating in this city is not turned on before 15. of November? Seriously.

I thought I'd escaped this insane cold weather when I moved from O-town, but apparently, I'm not that lucky.

I have this German friend, and he is tall, blond and looks like a person from a Nazi-Germany propaganda poster. I can't tell him that of course. 'Cause you just can't mention anything that's got to do with either Nazism or the second world war to Germans. Seriously, I've tried.

Anyways, seeing as he's very tall, his feet are of course very big too. So I can't help but wonder if it is really true what they say about big feet equals big penises. But then again, he's so tall that everything on his body should be big, so even if he has a big penis it doesn't prove anything. What I really should do is find a small person whit big feet and check if he has a big penis too. Or something. Do I have any readers who can confirm if this myth is true or untrue?

Anyway. The other day I took the before mentioned German guy to the Korean market to try to buy some winter clothes and there we met L&M and some US American girl who they randomly found at one of the stalls. As L&M spend ages in every booth and I don't we split up and I took the German guy and they took the American girl. Later L told me that apparently the American girl knew who the German guy was. The American girl had told her how he has a girlfriend in Germany and doesn't tell people here about it, and apparently she thought this to be morally wrong (the American girl, not L, I don't have that kind of friends, that would not work out well with my sex-life).
My thoughts on this is; If he doesn't tell anybody, how does she know? And even if he has a girlfriend in Germany, why does he need to tell everybody here? Why is that our business? As far as I've seen he haven't tried to hook up with anybody here. And not all relationships are the same. Why should we assume that they are? I know a lot of people who are in open relationships. Why would that not be okay? As long as all parts are consenting grown ups I don't see the problem. And my god, I can never talk to this girl about my sex-life.

I've finally bought a member card at one of the schools gyms (I did so two weeks ago, but didn't have time to work out the first week), so Saturday I went to yoga class and today I did some cardio + weight lifting. I have of course picked the worst possible time to take up training again, seeing as I'm having a new B12 shot in less than two weeks and am therefore feeling close to dead lately, but whatever, it's nice to actually use my body again.

The gym looks fine on first sight, and I know other people who use it and said it was okay expect they don't have air con. However, I have some issues with some of their equipment. Fore one, it'd very obvious on some of it that it is not intended for people my height. Secondly, I think a lot of the equipment is less user friendly than what I'm used to from SiO's gyms. A lot of the equipment is made so that when you use it you run the risk of bang metal pieces into yourself. Like the machine where you train your upper back and some arm muscles by pulling the handles towards yourself, where when you pulled the handles the thing the handles where attached to banged into your knees if you had just put your feet right in front of you. Also, you could only add 10lbs at a time (there were no loose plates either), not five, as I'm used to, which caused me not do do max weight on a lot of exercises because ten more were too much. But I can live with all this.

I was also glad to see that they had a pull-up machine, only to find that it was retarded. Not only did you have to stand(!), but you had to stand on a stick! So I almost fell off and "cheated" by pulling up my upper-body first. I think that this "cheating" is how it is natural for my body to move when it's standing up straight on something, and that it will be very hard for me to change it. I couldn't find any other place where I could practice pull-ups the "old fashioned" way either, so as for now, the whole pull-up-thing is set on hold...

I am very pleased with the yoga class though. The whole place is kind of noisy, but I'm not one of those who require total silence, so that was no problem, and the instructor were thorough and a good teacher. So all in all I'm pleased. I can live with a little odd equipment and it really is nice to use my body. I also think it's good for me to be a little body concious in a positive way.

In other news I've been loosing weight (again). I've been suspecting that I was for a long time, but as I can actually weigh myself at the gym I now know for sure. This means that I've gone from a BMI of 21,5 to a BMI of 19,4 in less than a year for no apparent reason. It seems as if I'm loosing weight regardless of what I'm eating or weather I'm working out or not. According to WHO a BMI of 18,5 to 24,5 is ideal, but still, I am kind of thin now.

How's your training programs working out lately?

I have not had sex with a woman in a very long time, and my God does that make me sexually frustrated. To the extent that I dreamt that I had sex with a woman when I was lying beside a man with whom I have sex with. Bah! I need to get my ass to over to that lesbian club soon. Seriously!  

In other news, wish me good luck on my exam tomorrow, I've read like 1 hour for it, so I really need the luck...

I've started writing a post (not the same post, just a random post) several times lately and the just given up at some point during the process. It's like I have so much to tell and no will to to communicate it through writing. Or like my attention span isn't long enough to actually write a text, even though I write several long texts in Chinese every week. Speaking of long texts in Chinese, I had an exam yesterday, and it went okay, even though I'm low on B12 (again), and wasn't really as prepared as i should be. Also, I should be cramming for my exam on Monday now, but procrastination is my friend.

I was really going to write some more here, but I'll just post now.

I have a VPN that works!
I fucking win. Again.

Because I can't fucking breathe. Or, you know, I can (obviously, I'm not dead yet), but it really feels like I can't (through my nose that is). And I don't think I have a cold, I had some fever a couple of days ago, but it passed and I was sure that was all over. Also this doesn't feel like a cold, it feels like I'm allergic to something. The question is what?

Oh well, I just did some nasal spay before I logged on the internet, that isn't supposed to work if you have a cold, but is supposed to make the swelling some of us (me) is having when we have allergic reactions to go down, and it kind of worked (for like a whole five seconds).
Blah.

It might just be that the air got very much drier over just a couple of days, right?

Oh! And on the bright side, my sisters came to BJ today:)

I went out last night. I had great fun, got drunk, spoke five different languages. Said and did the obligatory stupid things and went home too late.

So now I'm reading fashion blogs instead of doing my homework (70 new words, three new texts, one poetry analysis, one short story and some other stuff, all in Chinese of course). Also I miss all my clothes and shoes. I literally have nothing to wear here, especially when I do my laundry, like today.

I wasn't really going out yesterday. I was just going to hang out at a cafe with some friends and have a couple of beers.

But first we had to eat, so we had chuars, and some beer to go with them, because, dah! can't have chuars without beer, and then we found out it was Jewish new years so we had some more beer and sung all (both) the Hebrew songs we knew. Then suddenly we weren't going to a cafe but to a bar and this bar had an entrance fee but free beer, and so the story continues.

This morning I woke up in a bed that is not mine, and I no longer have a phone.
Fail.

The soundtrack of my life right now yesterday:

So I'm a member of this Norwegian gay community called gaysir.no, and this community has a forum. Now, I don't know if you are a member of any such sites, or if you hang out on any of those forums without any clear purpose or meaning, but my God is that forum entertaining (or at least in non-election times it is). Like today; some 19 year old gay guy posted a thread about how his straight flat mate walked in on him while he was jerking off in the bath-tub. This was clearly very dramatic and embarrassing to him (what is also embarrassing is how I have to look up "embarrassing" every time I want to write it). Writing about it on an internet forum with several thousands readers was not though...

In another thread somebody posted a link to this, then somebody else responded by posting a link to this, and that lead me to wonder, why would anybody want to look like this (they probably photo-shopped it themselves, they are photo-shopped, right? Right!?!)? The second guy isn't even symetrical! And whats with having your balls in front of, instead of between your thighs? So many questions, so few answers!

But some people do have answers! And I'm moving away from forums and over to the internet in general now. Nettavisen tells me some scientists in Texas have found out why women have sex. How fantastic! I've always been wondering about that when I lay there 69ing with some hot girl, my muscles giving me pleasures no legal or illegal substance can ever give me, why do I do this, really? Now I know, it's because I'm procrastinating! Now I know that, I won't have to put up with all that pesky sex any more, I can just pretend to do something really important on the internet instead and get the same result! Woha!

The last link I'll give you (bother you with), if you're still following that is, is mostly for martinemonster . The blogger who pointed me in this direction called it heartbreaking about intersex. I'm sure I would have agreed if I didn't feel it as such a slap in the face for all of us who are not intersex but still have severe problems with the barbie/ken-world we live in. "I am more aware of my male energy and have cried a lot less." Good on you, but people like you saying things like that makes it harder for people like me being who we are.

And why did I write this post? Well, you see, I'm procrastinating, I don't want to do those four pages of 汉语 homework I have to get done by 10.10 tomorrow, and as I don't have anybody to fuck right now, I'm pretending to do really important stuff on the internet instead...

Edit: Oh, and one more link; nobody puts baby in a corner.

Yesterday somebody posted a picture of me on facebook. It's not a very incriminating picture, but I didn't know it was taken and I generally don't think it's OK to post pictures of people who doesn't know the picture is taken. So asked her to remove it. Instead she pixeled my face and re-posted it. You can still see it's me on the picture though, and it only makes it look as though I'm doing something I shouldn't be doing on the internet or something as she pixeled it. So I asked her to remove it again. Etc.

I've now asked her to remove it three times, but she won't, she thinks it's an integral part of her album(!), a great "in the moment shot" and that cutting me off would destroy the composition of the picture (that last sentiment is true).

This total disrespect of my wishes makes me kind of angry.
What to do?

This is kind of weird, but my right leg is numb from the knee down to the ankle. I can move it and use it like I normally do, but when I touch it it feels really numb, it also has a slightly different color than my other leg. It's been like this all day long*, or in other words, for more than 16 hours, and I think it might be spreading to my thigh.
It's nothing dangerous, I think. I'm born with a slight defect in my hips, so if I walk a lot it might hurt, and if I sit in certain positions for a long time my leg(s) turn numb because something is squeezed in my hip(s). The numbness I'm feeling in my right leg now feels exactly like that, but the numb feeling will usually disappear after 5-10 minutes, not last for ever and ever. So even though I know it's nothing dangerous it's kind of creepy. What if it doesn't pass? Then what to do?

As it's the middle of the night right now I'm just gonna take a really hot shower before I go to bed, make sure I have warm enough covers for tonight and hope it will be gone tomorrow... The normal Norwegian procedure in other words.

*I've been cycling and swimming and running around playing all day long, so no need to suggest I try to move around a bit more and see if it helps;)

I had two exams today, and I think I actually kind of failed one of them. No kidding.

So I "celebrated" by having sushi at the only okay sushi place I've found here so far, and then visit some friends. Right now I'm at home preparing for tomorrows exam, or I will be preparing for it as soon as I've finished writing this post;) 

Anyways. Friday is the last day of the summer course, and after that we have two weeks off before our autumn semester starts. So I'll be going to Shanghai. Just to make myself even more language confused.

I'm sitting in my room wearing pants, socks and a cardigan and I'm a wee bit cold. And my air con isn't even on (but my windows are all wide open). I love it.

You know you are no longer low on B12 when in stead of falling asleep while doing your homework you want to clean the kitchen, go shopping, do yoga, wash some laundry, paint you nails, hem that dress that should have been hemmed and the list goes on for ever.

Still, that boring homework needs to be done. At least now I'm able to learn the stuff I'm working on.